wasted

a shadow of the person i once was

an empty shell of skin wandering the earth

i have moments of extreme peace

but they drift in and out of my daily sleep

changing shape like clouds

passion leaks out with tears

and the hope that once mirrored the sun

now echoes alone in the dark hall of my soul

fear and self-loathing rise to fill the space

i no longer know myself

i know the phoenix will rise again

she never fails

but will she ever fly

without surrendering to ash