i wanna scream

 cut myself open

and watch the blood drain the ache

from my raging heart

i wanna be punished

drink to oblivion

lose myself in a moment with a random guy

but i won’t do any of it …

instead i let tears

bring cooling relief to my heart

as little by little they slide down hot cheeks

i’ll search for answers and find the lesson in my heart

why this had to be

and i’ll pray to stop wanting you back

or for you to see with my eyes

the beauty of you

the beauty of me

and the wonderful thing that was us